Feeling Better but still cluless

So here we are. CD 33, 15 dpo. I ran out of hpt strips so I've been using opk strips. And let me tell you the opk strips are very, very positive. So there must be quite a bit of lutenizing horomone going through my system? Which is good because lutenizing hormone regulates progesterone? Or am I making this up out of thin air. I'm not sure. I thought I read that somewhere. Anyway, here we are. I feel SO MUCH BETTER today. Holy crow. Yesterday I was soooooo sick. So sick. My whole body was in a tizzy. My back was beyond broken with aches and pains and my sinuses were so swollen it looked like I had a bump on my nose! Anyway- my mum came over yesterday and gave me some ny-quil  to take. She said to just take it because I needed to rest and not getting rest wasn't going to help the baby or me so take and rest. Wow. Did it help. I needed to sleep because I hadn't slept in what felt like days. Thank you God. Yes. I slept like 11 hours last night. I am coughing up a lot of mucous how gross!!! Big yucky blobs and blowing nose constantly. Anyway mum said that she took antihistamines and drank wine once in a while when she was pregant with me so she seemed to think a litle ny-quil was ok. It really, really, helped. I also feel a little better today but still under the weather big time. I can't tell if my temp is up because of the fever I had or because of the pregnancy. On Monday I will call the doctor's office to get my hcg levels checked to see what the story is. I might miscarry over the weekend :( but I'm still holding out hope that I won't. I'm pretty much clueless about this pregnancy right now. Not sure what will happen. It is discouraging to see that my breasts have returned back to a much smaller state :( and are not as tender as they once were. The back pains yesterday made met think I would miscarry this weekend. But I couldn't tell if it was miscarriage pain or if it was my body aching from the cold that I caught.

Only time will tell. There's not much you can do in the first 7-8 weeks anyway except wait it out until you get to about 7 weeks and hopefully they will find something on an ultrasound scan. All we can do it wait....

In the meantime, I did have night sweats last night and soaked through my pyjamas and the sheets... ugh! That was either from my fever breaking or the actual nightsweats that I get when I become pregnant tho- if it was pregnancy night sweats they came much later than they usually do. The last three times I was pregnanat (and m/c later) I got night sweats around 12 dpo.

On top of being sick, my face is breaking out! I have a zit on my chin, one on my cheek and one on my neck? Ew. All on the same side of my face. What's that all about? I wish I could know what is going on. Am I going to carry a baby to term? Am I going to m/c again? I don't really have a 'normal' to compare this to. Hrmph.  Just going to focus on healing myself this weekend and getting better from this cold. I need to rest, relax, and stay calm and hydrated. The humidifier really helped last night too. Thank God I have some relief today! THANK YOU!!!!I was suffering terribly yesterday!

I think it's an encouraging thought that the opk strip was really alot darker than it's ever been... but I dont want to get my hopes up.It's not an hpt first of all, and secondly it doesnt mean that anything is viable yet either. My first pregnancy was a blighted ovum... the placenta and the gestational sac grew and grew up to almost 10 weeks but there was no baby. So my hcg levels were high and going up but - no baby. It wasn't until about 10 weeks when I started cramping and bleeding bright red blood that we went for an emergency u/s and saw that we had no baby - just a big placenta and gestational sac. :( That was not fun to pass- very strange and awful. Anyway- supposedly that only happens once to a person. So I'm trying to focus on the positive. With our second pregnancy we had a yolk sac but the development stopped at 5/6 weeks. That miscarriage was not any where near as awful as the first one. It was more like a heavy period with bad cramping. The third pregnancy was so quick. I used progesterone suppositories from 2 days after ovulation and still miscarried at 35 days even right through the progeseterone suppositories! Again, that was like a heavy period with cramping... After that one I said- that's it... next time I won't use progesterone and maybe I'll try b6 throughout the cycle and see if that helps. So I did. And that's where we are right now...  Not sure which way this is going to go yet...