stable or stumble

Here's today pic of the day:

This morning's temp was stable at 97.9 as you can see in the chart above. My cervix is low, closed, and very firm. This is the first time I think I ever knew for sure that it was firm there was no question about it. Not sure if that's indicative of anything. I think I'm going to call the RE this morning for a blood pregnancy test. I'd like to know what my hcg and progesterone levels are. It's so hard to tell what is going on over here.

On one hand, my breasts are becoming more tender by the day... it's like they were full-on tender to begin with, then around 9 dpo all tenderness went away. Then it started to come back when my temps went up. Now it's getting increasingly more tender. What can it mean? To me that is an encouraging sign. Curiously enough, I did not get night sweats (to my knowledge) at all this time around. Very strange as for the past three pregnancies (read: every pregnancy I've ever had) I have gotten night sweats right around 12 dpo. Nothing this time. Zip. Nadda. That's odd to me. Of course every pregnancy I have ever had also ended in m/c. So maybe that's a good thing that I didn't get them.

I think if I had morning sickness I would feel a lot more confident in this pregnancy. I know not every woman gets morning sickness but I also just read in WTEWYE that morning sickness is a healthy sign of pregnancy. I want that healthy sign of pregnancy. Curiously, my boobs, which prior to 9 dpo got HUGE and swelled up quite a bit, have not returned to a swelled state. In fact they look the same as they always do- so I don't take that as a good sign. No more brown discharge lately, which I also read in WTEWYE is a not so great sign, however when I check my cervix this morning. I could kind of get the idea that theremight be more brown to come in a few days. I could be wrong. I hope I am.

Ugh. I don't want to get the blood tests done, but it's probably better to do that just so I can confirm that this is happening and see what direction it is going in. :\

I should also note that the second hpt I took was just as I had worried about- it was not darker than the first one. It was about the same or a little lighter. Yeah. And the opks I keep using are getting lighter too. That means that the hcg isn't doubling as it should from what I can tell. So... what's the deal? Is this hormonal? Is my luteal phase too short? Maybe it was only going to be about 8 days long or 9 days long and then implantation happened. Can you see that on my chart? My 7 dpo progesterone test was a 9.1 - which is just below the 10 that most docs hope to see. Dunno what to think.

UPDATE:
I feel kinda sick today- like head cold congested sick. I have bad heart burn, ouch! Cant breathe through my bose, constantly sneezing, running and stuffed nose, itchy eyes, chest hurts. Felt a little queasy this morning but felt better after I ate some eggs and toast. Ugh. And I don't want to take any advil cold and sinus because I'm not sure about babie. Ugh. Also- I felt a nathaloian cyst on my cervix today. Never felt one ofthose before. Like a hard grain of salt or sand. Bad heartburn!!