Could this be? Could this be that rising third segment of temps or just wishful thinking? Not sure once again. Temp was up but not as high as yesterday. We did make it to 16 dpo which is good... I wonder how that fares to past attempts? I'll have to see what I can find in my files. I feel pretty good today physically. Mentally, I am feeling frightful of my boss at work. He frightens me. I'm trying not to make a mountain out of a molehill but honestly, I feel afraid to be around him. He is a jerk. A mean, condescending, control-freak jerk. He can be so nasty and talk so condescendingly to me for no reason at all. I think he hates women who have voices. He thinks women need to be dominated and silenced and men should be in control and work outside the home and have all the power while women stay barefoot and pregnant at home. I'm not a barefoot and pregnant kind of gal. I'm a working woman. I've paid my dues. I've put myself through school and have degrees that I am proud of. I am excellent at what I do and I've never gotten anything other than a "above what was expected" review on my annual review. Because I'm a good person and I do good work. Never have given any reason to doubt my efficiency or professionalism. This guy frightens me. I don't know if he is going to snap or what. I'm too afraid to go to HR because I know that doing that will just make the situation worse. Then again, if he starts his act up again with being unprofessional and condescending I will certainly go to HR because I've got nothing to lose at this point. It's a living nightmare to go to work everyday. It's not good for my stress levels. I get palpitations at work and my chest feels tight. My anxiety and panic goes through the roof. The man is unethical it's as simple as that. Anyway. I just want to get a new job so I can get out of there. It's not easy to find a job though, not around here. :\ and not in my field.
So anyway- here we are today. 98.3 degrees- that's cool. That's pretty high- for me anyway. My bbt is usually around 97.79 or something like that on a daily basis so anything in the 98s is pretty high for me. No bleeding or cramping yet. Though I did feel a little bit of pulling in the uterus area today... not cramping - a little sharp pulling.. not sure what that is about. OPK was very positive again this morning. Keep wondering if I should take progesterone or not... I mean Im taking 100mg of b6, 400 mg of folic acid and my prenatal vitamin which also has 1g of folate and 25mg of b6... it might be doing the trick? I dont know...
Had a dream last night that I had a baby girl. That she looked just like me when I was a baby girl. She was so beautiful! I was thinking about breast feeding her in the dream but was a little timid about doing so. I was afraid to do it... she started to suckle my finger so I knew she was hungry and I was kind of like .. uh-oh... how do I do this? Then I woke up. I mean really- how do I do this? It's not that hard to figure out, lol. Anyway, please dear God please please please help me to get a new job very, very, very, soon. I can't deal with that mad man at work anymore. Please God. Please help me. Amen.
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