No worries!

Wow. I should have enjoyed a few moments of pain-free boobies. They actually began to get sore again around mid-day yesterday and were back to their normally full and sore selves by the end of the day! This morning- same as usual- ouchie! lol.. I can't believe I was so worried. Well- talk about something NEW to worry about!!!! I got a call from a new employer's HR department that I need to call them back at my earliest convenience!

Of course.

Yes of course this is all happening right now. All at the same time. Everything I ever wanted! A baby, a new job... here you go! Help! So I am almost 9 weeks along now. What am I? 8 weeks 5 days. I've had 3 consecutive miscarriages and this is my 4th pregnancy... will it stick? I think so- but who am I to say? I'm reading everywhere that I shouldn't tell ANYBODY that I am pregnant until I am at least out of the 1st trimester- so once I hit 12 weeks... that's when I will share the good news... in the meantime, what do I do now that I might have a job interview soon? The position is at a university so who knows if it would start in a few weeks.... OR... in June when the new fiscal year begins??

Also, I really want to work at this unviersity. I applied for the job on December 23, a week before I even concieved. And now that it is February 12- I am 8 weeks along... so yeah- a lot happens in a few short weeks between when you apply for a job and when they actually call you for an interview! That's not my fault. Jeepers. Also, I could get pregnant within a week of starting a new job and who would even know? They would still need to deal with it. So confused... at a Catch 22.. dont know what to do.

I desperately want to get out of my current job. I've been there 5 years and believe me- it's not because I haven't tried to GET OUT. My boss is a psychopath and makes my life a living hell. I've been applying for a new job since the third month at this place. Yeah- I've been trying to get out for 5 years... and here I am 5 years later with possibly an interview! and I'm pregnant.
Love it.

I applied for 3 different positions at this new place. One I'm not even qualified for- so I hope to God they aren't calling to interview me for that one. I dont even know how I will handle that call! The other two would be great ... one is on the road... and I would LOVE IT if it wasnt for being pregnant... the other one is in hr which I would also like very much but ... oh dear... I dont know what to think. I dont even know if I can or will want to work after having a baby. But that's besides the point that right now I am the breadwinner and we can't afford to live on one income if I decide to quit and be a SAHM... we cant live on my husbands unemployment and he is desperately trying to get a job himself right now.

Not to mention that by accepting a new job I wont qualify for a leave of any kind... so it would be an unpaid absence of a 3 or 4 months. Ugh. BUT my own leave at my current employer sucks anyway... I have to use up my 30 sick days and 3 weeks of vacatoin and then I get a crappy 2 weeks of disability... whooopee do. The rest would be unpaid. And then I would have to go back to work full-time for a few weeks before I quit so they dont force me to pay back the premiums on my health insurance. Lovely.

Lots of things to think about this weekend. Please pray for us. Many big decisions!!!!