TGIF! Finally- the weekend is here! Still have very sore bbs and nausea galore- but I have to say it's not so bad that I can't function- but it's noticeable enough that I am functioning more slowly! Otherwise I feel pretty good. We went for a great walk yesterday and that felt really wonderful. It's starting to warm up out there so I'm looking forward to summer! I don't care much for spring- ugh- I think it's like the adolescence of the seasons... awkward, grey, overcast, windy, etc.. until the warm wonderful summer gets here. Can't wait!
In other news, I'm having some reservations about mommyhood and being a SAHM. Dangerously, I have placed a large amount of my identity on my work life-- not good. My husband says I should place my identity on my artistic endeavors because they are everlasting and always a part of me. Worklife is unstable and co-workers are fickle. Jobs change and careers fluctuate. It's true. Still, with my art taking a back seat in recent years and having become the breadwinner since we were married- I've felt a lot of pressure to maintain full-time employment at a job that I'd rather not be at some days (mostly because of my boss) because without it, we would not have been able to survive. So I've become accustomed to getting up every day, getting dressed up, and having some where to go and something to do... though that's debatable as most days there's not much to do!
It doesnt help much that we live in a lovely area that is not metropolitan in the slightest- ugh. Suburbia. Safe and wonderful and absolutely boring. The 'things to do' include shopping at the major chains (boring and we are broke!) and that's pretty much it. There isnt a lot of art or culture around here and I'm begininng to wonder what my days will be filled with as a SAHM.
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