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Monday, March 28, 2011

Happy 15 weeks today!

Today I am officially 15 weeks along and feeling fine! Baby is well. And we are too. I am however, still quite exhausted. Funny as my dh just stated 'isn't the second trimester supposed to be a lot better?' maybe! But so far... I'm as freaking pooped as ever!!! I'm so dang tired all the time. I feel like I could collapse. Maybe for hubby who has been out of work for the past year and gets to stay home all day living the life of Reilly- maybe he feels great.. but not me! I have an easy job for sure but still work 40 hours a week nonetheless where I have to be mentally alert and then on top of it I've added another teaching gig on from 6-10pm on some weeknights... plus there is a 2 hour commute added to that.. (1 hour going and 1 hour coming home)... So I'm working 8-430 every day and then adding a 6-10 once a week night class. I'm freaking TIRED. I feel exhausted and worn down. :( I wish I felt better. I'm also a little aggitated with the current state of things and extreme uncertainty about the future. I have a lot of stress because my husband is unemployed and I have big student loan payments kicking back in come June and there's all this fantasy talk of me staying home with the baby. Yeah right! While we live on my husband's nonexistent or barely existent job if he gets one? Max he can make is around 24K if we are LUCKY. Right now I am pulling in 35K and he is still getting about 1,000 a month on unemployment which barely covers our 1200/month mortgage. I'm scared. Im aggitated. It feels hopeless. Add to the mix that my crazy father in law is driving me up a g-damn wall I want to scream. We need financial help BIG TIME - we are drowning in debt and now will have another mouth to feed and unfortunately we are in a position where my husband can't provide the necessary $$$ we need to live even a modest life. Barring a miracle where he gets some kind of miraculous deal with selling his art... we are screwed before we even start the game. This sucks. Shit.

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