Wow! Here I am at 22 weeks. Feel great! Look great! Loving this! I've gained about 13-15lbs so far (which puts me near 163-165) not bad. I'll probably tip out around 185 (but hopefully less!) Still that will make an impressive weightloss story for sure! and I'll have a little darlin to show for it! WORTH IT! Baby is moving a lot lately and kicking up a storm - kicky Marie! So cute! The weather here has been so gross. It's been raining, raining, raining, for months!! This is rediculous!! The rainiest year ever. Here we are in the middle of May and it's been raining since March! Before that it was snow, snow, snow... not that I'm complaining but jeewiz a litte sunshine would be FABULOUS!
I've been having crappy dreams lately too. Wonder if they are stress related. They are. Money related. Stress related... Work related... disturbing and I hate them. Also am hearing the bristol hum again! Noooooes! LOL. That sucks. I can usually only hear it during the winter months when the ground is frozen. It's mechanical... it has a cadence to it. I think I'm the only person in neighborhood who can hear it though. Grand. Crazy lady! But it's there- either from gas drilling, farm equipment, the sewer system pumps, we also live near a water company tower.. who knows... All I know is that it's been dormant for several weeks (due to the ground defrosting) and then last night and the night before I can hear it loud and clear. So annoying. I just want to get a good night's sleep!
Sleeping is difficult. I cant sleep on my sides- even when I was thinner- the weight of my body crushes me. The fleshy part of my outter thighs hurts like mad. It feels bruised when I wake up. And my ear feels crushed too. My hubby folded up and put two comforters down on my spot so I can get some extra cushion when I sleep.. it helped the first night.. but not helping now. :( I'd like to try a feather bed or a memory foam mattress but you're talking $$$ for something like that... and a girl has her priorities... coach diaper bag... hellloo!! lol. I can suffer through the aches and pains... gimme my coach!
Well now that I am officially 'obese' at 165 and 5'3 I can tell you this. I have a LOT more sympathy for overweight people now that I am one. Grant it, yes, I am pregnant- and the weight gain I have is not because I am over eating or not exercising - I am growing a human being inside of me. Still- it's not easy to move around or bend over... forget about putting on underpants or socks... what a chore that is! My tummy gets in the way big time. I can't breathe most of the time I am huffing and puffing when I walk or sit. lol... it's a hard time for sure and I'm not even THAT big or THAT overweight. A few pounds makes a difference though. I miss being light on my feet. I'll tell you what- when I lose this baby weight- I'm not going to take for granted the joy of being thin and light again. 132 (or 126) here I come! I want to run again! I want to ride bikes! And I know my little toddler will keep me light and fit and on my feet!
I'm also having a lot of anxiety about leaving my job while on maternity leave and even MORE anxiety about whether or not to come back or take a year or two off. Hubby is applying for jobs in management so that will give us enough to live on when he secures something. Still, I like to be productive and I get competitive and I like to show something for my work and I like to be super woman too! Not a good combo. Raising a baby is going to be a lot of work from what I hear... just can't wrap my head around that yet. We'll see what happenens.... in the meantime, time for me to pray and meditate ... and oh yeah... I should get ready for work! LATE!!
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