So now I have what I can assume are Braxton Hicks! It feels like very very mild slight cramping in lower abdomen area/pelvic area. Lasts for maybe a few minutes once a day... mostly at night... no big whoop. But that's apparently what it is... Found out I was indeed just cat-stretching every morning because now I do it consciously and it feels GOOD... helps a lot.. my body is so cramped up when I have to sleep on my sides and I'm snoring like a snuffalufagus lately. OMG. I sound like a lawn mower!! I wake myself up! lol. Baby is SOOO active!!! She's a swimmer! Or a gymnast that's for sure!! She loves to twirl and topple about in there!
Weight gain has been zilcho today! I thought for sure I would have gained a few pounds... the last weigh in was 188... so hubs and I thought I'd be up to 192 today... nope... still at 188!! Weird... also weird is that baby is measuring up at 35 weeks today- and I'm only 33 weeks and 4 days along. She is a big baby or a long baby... taking after daddy already. :) So if I didn't gain weight but baby got bigger... must mean that I lost weight and baby gained it. I think.
Heartbeat was 150 - which was excellent.
BP was 130 over 60... that's a litte high for the upper number for me.. .I think that was operator error as the girl taking my BP was gabbing away and making me nervous. :P
Met with the midwives today and surprisingly they didn't put me at ease!! I thought for sure- I've waited so long to meet with them and talk about our natural birth options.. but they seemed more keen on reading over my birth plan and making ammendments to it telling me that pitocin might be necessary and episiotomies happen sometimes but they really don't like to do them unless it looks like you will have a big tear... great...
Now I'm getting nervous... I actually felt a LOT more comfortable with some of the doctors that we've met... lovely bunch they are... and my suspicions about who is more inclined to medical were spot on too.
well - at least we have a heads up.
Really the only thing I can do to help myself get in and out of there with as littel intervention as possible is to labor as long as I can at home!!!
Or come up with $1600 for a home birth... but with our current budget - the $100 copay makes more sense.... plus I should probaly give hospital birth a whirl so I have something to compare a home birth to (which I hope to have with our next one).
So nerve wracking... it's like you're damned if you and damned if you don't! Part of me wants a vaginal natural birth .. but the other part thinks a c-section would at least save my private parts from getting torn or stretched or cut... but that's such MAJOR surgery.. ugh! and that TERRIFIES me!!!
I don't know. I feel like it's starting to get out of control already. Really thought talking to the midwives would help me feel better today but honestly- it kind of made me feel more anxious.
The one midwife reminded me of a really weird nun... and she had a beard... and some weird splochy red marks on her arm.. the other one was nice but seemed to be drugged out and la la gooey eyed and too calm and relaxed and hippie like and she had a big thing on her face... What was I expecting? Maybe a sharp dressed youngish chick who looked like she had it together? Maybe someone who came across as an advocate for YOU not as a justifier of the inevitable...
I don't know. :\ Disappointed to say the least. Did not get that sense of security and 'we're in this together' that I was hoping for. I actually felt a lot better talking to the docs!!
Anyway- we brought in our birth plan and reviewed it with the midwives and they pretty much told us in so many words... some things can't be avoided... like pitocin and IV and epidural.. not cool. Don't want it.
Especially dont want the pitocin... they said if things were not progressing they'd have to do it... but if I was up and moving around and ambulatory in first phase of labour than it might not be necessary... whatever... stay away from me!!!
Pitocin leads to epidural and epidural leads to sleepy baby and sleepy baby leads to fetal distress which leads to c-section... NO THANKS.
Argh. It's big business - this business of being born... and then I also start to wonder... am I REALLY measuring bigger??? Or what if they exagerate a bit so that they try to induce me early.... GET LOST.
I don't want to meet with the midwives again. I want one of the two doctors that I really like... Dr. C and Dr. D.... thank you very much. =D
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