Ultrasound 19w 2 d

Later this keening I have my anatomy ultra sound. Excited to see what is going on. Nervous too. Guess we also find out gender today too. That's exciting lol. So mixed on how to feel. On one hand I feel like another girl would be soooo soooo awesome and Amazon and wonderful and what I've always wanted. On the other I will prob grieve a bit for the boy I never had. On the one hand I will be shocked and amazed if it is a boy. But will grieve uncontrollably for the little girl I wanted to have as a little sister for DD. My girls will always be with me. My boy will leave me one day for a wife. My girls are my best friends. My little man will be a new adventure to try to figure out. 

So many emotions. I'm really not sure how to feel. I can tell you whomever it is is very active and kicky!!!! My little darling is a little ninja in there!!! I love the little kicks and feel so close to baby already xoxxoxoxoxox